The month of march makes me feel happy and sad at the same time. It's my birthday month, I'm so happy to be alive and healthy, yet it makes me sad to think about how many years I suffered with my eating disorder.
I am grateful for each day that I have living in recovery, and look forward to my kick off event of Living Proof MN on March 31st.
I'd like to think that we all know our limits. But, really, how much can one person take or withstand? When things get hard we all have different ways of coping or managing the issue. Some people shut down, while other people get fired up. The determination and drive to live in some people is incomprehensible to some. There are some people that have so much resilience that they don't ever think of giving up.
What would it take to push yourself to conquer your dreams, overcome your biggest obstacles, and live a better life that you have only imagined.
Taking time for yourself is uncommon these days. We are always so busy running around. Either we are working or doing something for someone else. This morning I went back to the writing group, it had been awhile since I was there, it is where I started down the road to recovery. I remember the first day I went, how sick I was, how sad I was, and how empty I felt. The day before I went to writing group, when I left the hospital, I had planned to go to the writing group. I found it on the meetup website and told my doctor I had to get discharged, so I could go. I wasn't really hesitant to share, I think I was really wanting to put my story out there. It was part of me, it was where I was at the time, it was my story. The more I wrote and shared, the more connected I felt with the writers in the group. Now 5 years later, the group has seen my transformation. They have seen me rise up from the sick, weak girl that I was to the strong and confident woman I am today. If it weren't for the writing group and taking the time for myself, that day, I don't think I would be where I am today. I am grateful for taking the time for myself and joining a group that has really seen me through quite a journey.
We are so quick to judge. So quick to remark. So quick to make assumptions. 1st impressions can lead us in the wrong direction. Think about all the people you wouldn't be acquainted with if you went by your first impression.
Today be more kind to others by having an open mind. Be a compassionate person. Be a better listener and not so much a talker. Everyone has a history and a story. Everyone is fighting their own demons. Everyone has times of feeling ashamed and embarrassed, self conscious and unsure. Put yourself in their shoes, what would you want someone to see in you that they may not see in the first minute of knowing you?
I am married to a man that I met at a writing group and have 2 big dogs that bring a lot of joy to my life. I like to go camping and hiking and spend time with my friends and family. I have been a registered nurse for 10 years and work with people who have mental health issues and people with drug and alcohol addictions. I have been in recovery from my eating disorder since Oct 2013.